I'm pretending to not care to try and retain my sanity and freedom too.
But reality is at this point the silence is death defying
I'd rather go insane for you.
Just to have you in my life, to know that the essence of our thoughts are connected on some level would balance this scale of confusion.
The rejection I've had to endure from the lack of your being here
has put me in total and irreversible delusion
I'd take the timed medication and sleep in a padded room with no shoestrings in my shoes.
Just to know during visiting hours I'd be graced with the presence of you
The emotional draw I feel is so magnetic, so powerful, so robust,
Enticing, and overwhelming, God grant me the days when life was just US!
The NEW days, and beginning nervous sweats
The first kisses and endless sex
The moments after when lying on your chest
And deep rooted conversations which helped me learn you best.
The "Love is" situational responses and
pauses throughout the day
To just wonder...and ponder...and have intimacy replayed
I promise Lord to protect your angels heart.
I promise to Love you first, then love him so we never grow apart.
Oh baby Your smile, your laugh, your scent
The memories are to intense to bare
Tell me, what do I need to do oh Lord to have him here.
Next to me!!!
You put him in my life, don't take him away,
what needs to be done? what do I need to say?
Guide me, this roller coaster of emotions has become sickening
This silence I've enforce is mentally reckoning.
I have no closing for this can't be the end
I have no closing til I receive that text...Love is....huh?!?! Or be it just a Friend!
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